A Tiny Bit of My Past…

Posted on | March 24, 2009 | 20 Comments

I didn’t know if I was ever going to scrapbook any with my ex in it but the challenge at Scrapping the Music: White Horse inspired and pushed me to do it. So thanks for the nudge!!

To me, this is a special layout, this was where it started. Unlike some who dislike their exes to pieces, I chose to remember the life we had together, learn, and be the best possible friend to my ex now (we even met up last month). After we separated we talked about our issues then and slowly figured things out. I think now we have most everything sorted out. Our marriage didn’t have a happily ever after and we had some really tough times but we both learned a lot from it and I cherish the experience more than anything else. What happened to us shaped me and made me who I am today and gave me what I have now. I wouldn’t trade today for a different past. It was really tough but things worked itself out. Life is funny that way, huh?

M loves Taylor Swift. She loves that song where Taylor’s wearing a ball gown. We listen to the Disney station on XM so this White Horse song isn’t unfamiliar. But, I rarely listen to the words, I mostly listen to the melody. So the first time I actually listened to the words were the other day at Scrapping the Music. Although not 100% a reflection of my past relationship it reminded me of who I thought I and my relationship was. I always thought (sometimes still do, ha!) that I was a princess, out there is my prince charming, and just like a fairy tale we’d get married and live happily ever after. So I saved myself for that one person and I found him… or so I thought. We were both really young and sometimes, love just isn’t enough to conquer a lot of heavy life changing issues and personal growth. We had a few huge arguments but we didn’t split up because we hated each others’ guts, we split up because we loved each other. We both wanted the other person to be happy, find that special someone, and learn as much as we can about ourselves. Life is about learning and experiencing, right? So here I am and that’s why the song made me create this layout.

I’ve gotten a better head on me now. I still believe in happily ever after and I really feel like my hubby is my prince charming (and the funniest + hottest man alive ha ha ha) but I’m more realistic about it. My current relationship isn’t tough, we’re very different but we really click and compliment each other well, but we both know we need to work hard at it and try our best to listen to each other and remember. I’m a very lucky person. I’ve only had two special men in my life and the little family that my hubby’s sharing with me is more than I could ever ask for. I’ve got a lot to learn still (and my hubby is always there to help me… even if he sometimes just wants to throw me out the window lol) but right now, I feel very very blessed.

Material: Dec.’08 kit from Scarlet Lime, American Craft Thickers, and K&Co Amy Butler tags. Castle is in Carcassonne, France.

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